Horatio

Last year when I spontaneously took a sabbatical after My birthday, there was so much I didn't know.

I didn't know that I was being blessed with the privilege to spend such priceless quality time with My Horatio, for his last few months. 

Just Him and Me. 

Skin to fur.

Cuddling together in Our own little Cocoon of Love. 

His heart beating next to Mine.

His purr and His sighs resonating within Me, bringing deep healing to My soul.

I didn't know that I would be facing so many storms. 

Storms within Myself, and in those around Me.

I didn't know that I would be fighting so many battles, both of this world, and of the world we cannot see.

I didn't know that I would be walking away from some I considered My own, building walls where there once were doors.

I didn't know that I would weep for the ones I love. 

I didn't know that I would be facing fears and insecurities I had thought were long put to rest.

When My Horatio and I were wrapped up in Our own little cocoon of Love, I didn't know that He would emerge from Our Cocoon ready to leave this world and move on to the next.

And I didn't know that the only way for ME to emerge from Our Cocoon was through a tunnel of fire.

As I look back over the year since My Horatio died, I can lament over all I've lost.

I can cry for all that could have been, or should have been.

I can stay hurt and traumatized and scared and lost and weighed down.

Or I can look back and celebrate not just MY strength and resilience, but also that of the Ones I love most.

I can acknowledge the trauma, both My own, and that of others, and let it go.

I can take pride in the closure and the progress that has been made.

Knowing We are ALL healed, battle worn, but always stronger.

I can look at all I've lost.

Or I can be deeply grateful for all that I've gained. 

So as I look back at My first year without My Darling Hurru, I CHOOSE to look back with gratitude, and with Love, and with Peace. 

Because as a wise Soul once told Me, "You've already been through the fire. You don't need to revisit the flames in order to heal."

And life is all about choices. 

And I will ALWAYS choose to believe. 

And I will ALWAYS choose Love.

Because beyond the pain, there is only Love, and where there is Love, there is only Peace. 

And everything is in the Perfection of Divine Order. 

~Makalism