I don't often write much about My Real Time Sessions. They are a private experience between Myself and My sub, and even by omitting names, talking about it so others can just use it as yank fodder would trivialize the experience.
However, the person I chose to have My last Real Time session of this decade with, is someone who has not only grown in various aspects over the years, but has inspired Me in many ways.
This is our story and I'm sharing it with his consent.
We can call him "Delhi Dog". He comes across as just another middle aged corporate guy. You know the type. He first reached out to Me in 2015. At that time I was still struggling with making the transition from being a Lifestyle Domme to a Pro Domme and getting used to the change in mindset it involved.
He told Me that he occasionally came to Mumbai for work and would like the opportunity to serve Me on his next trip. We discussed his fetishes/limits and My expectations and I told him the rest would be covered in our casual meet over coffee before the session.
We hit it off as soon as we met, and were soon chatting comfortably like old acquaintances who've met after ages. We covered everything from kink to a wide range of vanilla topics and over the course of our conversation he spoke about when he first discovered his fetishes and how they differ from his need to submit.
I was immediately intrigued and enthralled because it was rare for Me to come across someone who knew how to differentiate between the two. He told Me that although he had met quite a few Pro Dommes both in India and abroad, and explored many of his fetishes, he was yet to experience what submission truly felt like, and hadn't reached subspace.
Our first session went well. I spent most of the time testing him and seeing how far he could go. I liked the fact that once the Power Exchange took place he actually let Me take the lead, and didn't have one eye on the clock trying to get in as many fetishes on his imaginary checklist before his time was up.
Unfortunately once I launched Myself as a Pro Domme, I DID come across quite a few individuals like that. It's one of the main reasons why I no longer am a Pro and have gone back to being a Lifestyle Domme.
Anyway, back to Delhi Dog. Our session ended on a satisfactory level for us both, but I could feel he had been holding back. Numerous times during our session, I looked him in the eye, and could see an internal struggle going on. I knew he would find his way to submit to Me completely, and I'm nothing if not patient. He left after touching My Feet and assured Me he would serve the next time he was in Mumbai.
Time passed by and our sessions were getting more intense, more frequent, but I could still feel him holding back. It wasn't until the end of one of our sessions, during the period of after care, when I finally was able to get through to him.
What transpired between us was private and shall remain so, but needless to say it was a life-changing experience for both of us, which ended with him placing his head on My lap while he wept, while I comforted him, knowing this was a moment of tremendous healing for us both.
Shortly after that, his situation changed, and he no longer had work that brought him to Mumbai. We still remained in touch frequently, and I shared with him the decision I had taken regarding My Real Time Sessions and what direction I wanted to take My Femdom Empire in.
I told him I just couldn't market Myself as Pro Domme anymore, because the Power Exchange was SUCH an essential part of a session for Me and I just couldn't deal with all entitled kinksters who came My way.
He laughed and said it was inevitable, because he knew right from the beginning that I wasn't the kind of person who would be able to disconnect Myself emotionally from My sessions, and would bore easily if there was nothing beyond the "kink".
I told him what a HUGE part he had made in My decision, and teased him about how his complete and utter submission to Me had spoiled Me for the rest!
He now comes to Mumbai every month, for the sole purpose of having a session with Me, and his presence in My life is something I cherish and am eternally grateful for.
He has grown in so many ways since we first met, and so have I.
As much as I LOVE My kinks and indulge in them often, I compare play with no power exchange vs complete submission to the difference between having sex and making love.
One can be extremely satisfying on a purely physical/biological level. But when you connect on levels that go beyond the physical, then each touch, each whisper of breath upon your skin, takes you to heights of pleasure you never even thought possible.
Now whether Delhi Dog is tied up and receiving his lashes, or kneeling at My Feet with My hand lovingly stroking his head, we both know we've found what we were searching for.
Our sessions always end the same way. With him touching My Feet, just before I give him a big hug.
I don't think anything can be a better symbol of our relationship than that.
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